All About Ms P

I know thinks are not going the right way that you dream for... I know that you are unable to get ride of me...  I too feel it.. I gets awake with you voice in sleep..  I feel the inner voice that you still want me to reach out...  But you should realise one think its.. You who blocking me... And its you who stopping your happiness...  You are afraid that giving me a chance would hurt me more... But you know that it won't happen.. I will never be able to hurt you anymore....  I now have opened my self to accept any challenges.. Because I'v reached a point.. I feel that i don't need any love like the way you satisfied...  I'm in deep love with you...  I had a dream that we are getting a chance to meet again from a beach.. Or seashore resort.. Something place like that..... One day you are gonna realise it.. And you should stop searching me in another person.. You know we both are unique.. The way we are...  What it take cost now is Just a text to me... It delayed.. More

 These are the thinks that i feel and what i'm doing... I feel that every conversation that you are having with anyone , without even knowing you are searching for me... Because that what i'm trying to do. i know you are trying to find a comfort zone, just like the one you had with me... and you are not seeing me.. that i'm just missing you like crazy. And you have already started doubting your so called FB love and you have started feeling insecurity.. You may denie it now: but that's what you are trying to do. You was really happy with me and you know we always had the key for our happiness.. What you are about to doo the same think , that i'm doing.... Loved someone who touched your soul and body ,,, and gonna act happy to another just to live like mind slaughter. we both are in same page... and pain. what it take is correct everything is with us.. A decent strong hug, closed eyes and a loud cry .... No sorry .. No hurts... No Pain..  Just us.. we can flip whole

I feel it...  You are feeling unsafe and too much of thinking going through your mind...  Yep... You know our feelings are strong and stronger...  I know you are getting the sense of lonlyness..  Yes.. Me too... Sometime i wanna text you and say.. " Hey paruuuu miss you babe... I love you soo much... Shall we hang out...?" But its again in my draft...  You know you will be happy... I know your moods... Like no bodies knows.. You know i can make you laugh like the end of the day... We used to do it... Right... All those funny faces... Childish talks... Paruummma, appuchuuu, dhoorandhm, shituuu, bablooooo, muthumani... Its all in your finger tip.  Do you think anyone would step with you the way i did... Noo never.. No body will... Because no body will be me... You know it very well.. That's where you fall in for me...  Don't think too much... Let's do it correctly this time...  Just come back babe..... Let's live a happy life out of online... 

These people are my heaven... These people is all i have..  And this is what i have offered you..  You loved them...  This is what you always wanted....  They have accepted you as well....  And these people still have a space left for you... Because we don't replace people..  Just like i did you always had your own space.. Because they loved you so much like i do..  You will never feel alone in here... I know your greatest fear is getting left alone....  I know you are getting left alone, thinks are not changing the way it changed before... You still have the restart and resume button... Because i still waiting for you.... This is the heaven... Being with them is more happy... You still have space between us... All you have to do is... Take a deep breath... Clean your mind and dial me...  Just come back home.... 

I have never missed to be with you...  You know that...  Its ok now you don't need me..  But i have lifetime memories.. And you hold the other side of my memories to...  I was weak.. But we both where strong... 

Paruuu... Do you Remember, when i was in Kochi and Chennai, we used to talk hours and hours Right ??? And you know why i have taken night shift to earn more, so that we can settle our life Right ? But still we used to talk like every time.. Just that this corona came i got more engaged with Job and you because free.. that where everything started.. Today I sent you and SMS on missing you , that was mistake , there are 176 messages in my draft which i have not sent you. But this SMS Just got lucky and oozed out. I know you also have the same fear of getting left alone , but for that the path you have taken is soo wrong. you know you have hidden many think on me.. But i have forgiven everything ..Every time is used to say Ok sarula poot.. Now i feel so Numb that i can feel anything .. Now you are looking for a partner , but you are not seeing me.. you will not find any man like me who would dedicate his life for you. You have experienced it.. to whom you have nigh calls are also connecti

 One day you will Remember me..... I believe you are remembering me every time when you chat with some one and when you open your whatsApp,  though you have blocked me, it doesn't mean i have to go away from you.   i really wish if could change you mind and turn it around, just to get warm hug. I miss you so badly...  You have rolled back to you old love, but deep in your mind you know that you are cheating yourself.   you have blocked him, i know, But do you want to know how he came back to your life.. ???? He have deleted his whatsApp account , so that his name from your block list was removed and then created same account and you had his name save in you contact and his pain full status and updated came right to you. That was the fraud move he have done and you fall to it . Beliving that he is still in love with you , I was having his gf photos updated in his Instagram account  and the day you have sent him the follow request , he have removed all of those and pretend to nice an

Hey babe... If you would come and fall back love with me...  Tell me... Let me know.....  I can hug you the say way...  I can hold your hand the same way...  Because nothing changed except you...  You know I'm dying to live with you... 

Why me ? why do you want to take her away from me. why did you made us the same way we are ? why did you made us meet ? and why did you made us in love ? Why are you keeping me alive as the way i don't want to live any more. do you know 7 attempt , i was close enough to reach you to throw these question right in front of you.. She was my life , you know it right ? i have dreamed everything about her and you made us love to the core didn't you ? we love like married couples and now look what you have made...  I was a person who never lied and hates a person who lie. and you made me go through it ??? what was the mistake that i have done ? Can i run away from my responsibility to take care of my father ?  How can i run away from the responsibility to take my sister to interview. Why didn't you made her understand the relevance of helping the Covid Quarantine care.? By doing this what have you gained my lord ?? are you preparing something better for me? No i don't want tha

If you happen to read this blog.. I want you to pictures you sitting on the sofa where i sat last time in you home and me sitting opposite to you on the teapoy, hold both of your hands and looking into you eyes.. I know you are not comfortable.. Now think if you marry some one, who is already settled in his work/business will he have full time for you..?  If you think yes.. That is the biggest lie you are convincing yourself. I can show you some example.  Pathu and her husband are they always together?  Will her husband quit job to live with her.? Shalu amma and lachu achan.. Did lachu achan quit abroad to come life shalu amma?  Swetha my cousins she break up with his lover being an army man. And now married to lithin bro. He haven't came to India for last 1 year. Haven't even seen his son in real.  Vijina wife of ragith, supriya wife of regith, athira wife of rejil.. They alll haven't see their husband more than 2 years..  Ravi maman business avishatin avideyoke pokun. Avr

“Forgive others as quickly as you expect God to forgive you.” Bible verse....  I loved her to my life.. May be more than anything in my life..  She says she never forgive me again.. I know she is angry with me..  But she would realise one day that. She would have forgiven me a bit before. Because i would me moving that time. As she wanted i would be lost a million mile apart to prove her i never quit on her.  Now then moment when i write this blog, my girl is have anger to kill me and split me into piece.. But she is nothing knowing that.. The heart that she have broken into millions of pieces are getting healed just on a hope to get her love.. Like god says.. Forgiveness is the right path and this ability is given by the highest god to his children.  Amen.  God has the ability to forgive any mistakes you have done and he always expects the same from his children..  All the 3 books says about it.  Pooja may be forgiveness is the one good lesson you are learning in this hard way.. In fu

Sometime i really wanted to ask you .. are you the same girl who have, loved me and was with me skin to skin.??? Oh hell this question itself hurts deep down. How can you just leave me , for a reason which i couldn't control .. if i was sleeping all the day with any task done. then you have point , forget it. i'm happy to consider that its my fault. and do you remember that you didn't want to speak to me as because i have found the follow request that you have sent to Rakesh and he have accepted it .....?  You know you have lied on me and , you informed him to block you account from his end. isn't ? all these time i was holding these secret and never wanted to hurt you . I didn't wanted shalu amma to know that you have done this from your end hence i have tilted that, it was some technical issue which happened. I always know that you had had his phone number and you was exited to see that he see you status update, and you even wished on his birthday (11-11-2020) and

I would like to write this as an love letter, Because long before you have asked me to write a Love letter. those day we never needed any because we we always connected. and i know this letter will never reach you. so I'm gonna express with all my heart, you might find it shitty but this blog never gonna reach you. From My Heart 16/12/2020 My Darling,              Let me start with love, i miss you like crazy and i really wish you would come back for me. My love for you is so lustful and as wild as sea. when i say this i really mean it. i want more just like i'm dying thirst.  Do you remember how we first met ? Do you remember how i have found my way to you ? ok. since you have left me alone to fuck up with my time , let me take you through the each and every details of those melodious and marvelous days. So the question again. Do you remember the How we first met ? mmm of so let me put up those glittering moments of my life which i found the way. It all started on the way to K